apa yang nak dicari

Wednesday, December 31, 2008

so damm sad.......

i just sitting in front of my pc after playing futsal and suddenly aizat sent me some kind of song lyrics... that lyrics are interesting enough to make me ask him the song's title, after a few lawak bodoh, he give me the title..

lepas tu, aku terus cari lagu tu dalam collection aku, bila dengar je, rasa macam best je lagu ni.. aku bukak youtube search video klip lagu tu, lain dr apa yang aku pikirkan, tp cukup utk bwt aku igt benda2 lama, n bwt aku........

best dow lagu ni, kalau ada pengalaman macam aku, kompom akan dengar tanpa henti... and sediakan tisu banyak2.... tajuk lagu tu, DEMI CINTA by KERISPATIH....

Friday, December 26, 2008

kepada saudari-saudari seagama dengan ku

Baju nipis nampak bayang
Peha gebu saja ditayang
Lebih baik tak pakai baju senang
Dah tentu boleh tunjuk terang-terang

Baju ketat seluar sendat
Pakai tudung just ikat-ikat
Dari mula memang bukan adat
Disudut agama pun gaya tak berkat

Tudung jarang baju nipis
Pakai sikit boleh nampak ‘garis’
Mata orang terbeliak, kita membengis
Bila kena kutuk, kenapa menangis

Lengan pendek blaus gantung
Jeans ketat melekat dipunggung
Jadi orang Islam ni sebenarnya beruntung
Agama tak suruh berbungkus macam pocong

Apa rasanya, kepala bertudung, kain terbelah
Kalau takat rambut orang kurang ghairah
Lain kalau peha gebu atau ternampak lurah
Mata yang memandang boleh keluar darah

Kebaya ketat, kain terbelah
Ikat tudung macam tak sudah
Nak ikut suruhan agama memang tak mudah
Tapi Islam sebenarnya indah

Tutup aurat bukan suruh berselubung
Sampai tak nampak muka dan hidung
Yang faham tuntutan amat beruntung
Taklah bersungut mulut pun muncung

Dah kalau mula minat nak bertudung
Cubalah sesuaikan apa yang disarung
Kalau masih rasa jiwa tu ‘mendung’
Maknanya nafsu tu belum dapat dibendung

Bertudung itu bukan satu paksaan
Ianya lebih kepada keinsafan
Selalunya nafsu masih dikuasai syaitan
Itu la pasal fesyen pun yang bukan-bukan

Asal menutup aurat itu tuntutan
Kalau dianggap susah, tu sebab bosan
Yang ye nya hati tak berkenan
Tu yang berjela-jela mencipta alasan

Menutup aurat satu syariat
Kepada agama kita taat
Hidup berkat pahala berlipat-lipat
Didunia selamat, di akhirat hebat

Friday, December 5, 2008

bulan tak terang

aku mentari tapi tak menghangatkanmu
aku pelangi tak memberi warna di hidupmu
aku sang bulan tak menerangi malammu
aku lah bintang yg hilang ditelan kegelapan

selalu itu yg kau ucapkan padaku

sebagai kekasih yang tak dianggap
aku hanya bisa mencoba mengalah
menahan setiap amarah

aku sang bulan tak menerangi malammu
aku lah bintang yg hilang ditelan kegelapan

sebagai kekasih yang tak dianggap
aku hanya bisa mencoba mengalah
menahan setiap amarah

sebagai kekasih yang tak dianggap
aku hanya bisa mencoba bersabar
ku yakin kau kan berubah

kekasih tak dianggap, kertas band.

best lirik tok, macam pengalaman aku jugak, cuma yang bezanya aku tak dapat bersabar ngn mengalah lagi.. bukan xnak, but just can't take it anymore, dilayan macam patung yang xder perasaan, ikut semua kehendak, walaupun benda salah, last2 aku jugak yang disalahkan.. love just a beautifull but painful memories....

Thursday, December 4, 2008

system medley??

Every time I look in your eyes,
every day I'm watching you die.
All the faults I see in you.
But how? And why?

She's like heroin
Sipping through a little glass
I'm looking for some help
I need someone to save her ass
She wants nothing more
But to be a little whore
He wants nothing less
But to wear a little dress

Such a lonely day
And its mine
The most loneliest day in my life
And if you go, i wanna go with you
And if you die, i wanna die with you
Take your hand and walk away

We don't give a damn about your world,
With all your global profits and all your jeweled pearls,
We don't give a damn about your world,
Right now, right now.

Life is a waterfall,
We're one in the river,
And one again after the fall.

Cause we are the ones that want to play,
Always want to go,
But you never want to stay,
And we are the ones that want to choose,
Always want to play,
But you never want to lose

I don't think you trust
In, my, self righteous suicide
I, cry, when angels deserve to die
In, my, self righteous suicide
I, cry, when angels deserve to die

Life is but a dream,
Drifting on a stream, a stream,
Consciously it seems,
All of what remains,

Tuesday, December 2, 2008

Ronaldo, simply the best

Cristiano Ronaldo has been awarded the prestigious Ballon d’or trophy.

The most coveted individual honour in world football, the award recognises Ronaldo’s outstanding performances over the past 12 months.

"I dreamt of this when I was younger," he said. "It's a great day for me and my family."

The Portuguese winger scored 42 goals last season on the way to domestic and European glory with the Reds and was the resounding favourite to win the trophy.

After France Football’s confirmation in the early hours of Tuesday morning, the 23-year-old joins United legends George Best, Denis Law and Bobby Charlton on the award’s honours roll.

Recent winners include Kaka (AC Milan, 2007), Fabio Cannavaro (Juventus/Real Madrid, 2006) and Ronaldinho (Barcelona, 2005).

Ronny is the 42nd different player to pick up the prize, and the third Portuguese after Eusebio’s victory in 1965 and Figo's win in 2000.

"The Ballon d'or has been won by two great Portuguese players and for me to be part of that history is a great feeling."

Last five winners:

2007 – Kaka
2006 – Fabio Cannavaro
2005 – Ronaldinho
2004 – Andriy Shevchenko
2003 – Pavel Nedved

Other winners from English clubs:

2001 – Michael Owen (Liverpool)
1968 – George Best (United)
1965 – Bobby Charlton (United)
1964 – Denis Law (United)
1956 – Stanley Matthews (Blackpool)

taken from www.manutd.com

Monday, December 1, 2008

fade to black

Life it seems will fade away
Drifting further everyday
Getting lost within myself
Nothing matters no one else
I have lost the will to live
Simply nothing more to give
There is nothing more for me
Need the end to set me free
Things not what they used to be
Missing one inside of me
Deadly loss this cant be real
Cannot stand this hell i feel
Emptiness is filling me To the point of agony
Growing darkness taking dawn
I was me but now, hes gone
No one but me can save myself, but its too late
Now i cant think, think why i should even try
Yesterday seems as though it never existed
Death greets me warm, now i will just say goodbye

fade to black, by metallica.. this one of the songs that i like from my childhood untill now, even though the lyric tell about death, but what wrong with that?? everybody must die someday right..

harder to breathe

When it gets cold outside and you got nobody to love
You'll understand what I mean when I say
There's no way we're gonna give up
And like a little girl cries in the face of a monster that lives in her dreams
Is there anyone out there cause it's getting harder and harder to breathe
Is there anyone out there cause it's getting harder and harder to breathe

best jugak lirik ni, boring2 kat unimas, baru seminggu, rasa macam dah bertahun.. huhu.. esok rancang nak pg mandi2 n barbeque kat mokap, tp tgk keadaan jugak la jadi ke tak. sekarang kan musim hujan, so bergantung pada cuaca la. semalam berhujan balik dari warung, basah kuyup, tp berbaloi la, man u menang beb.. hehehe.. chelsea pulak kalah ngn arsenal, (xtgk pun match tu, tido kat meja warung) haha.. harap2 malam ni liverpool pun sama la.. hehe

Monday, November 24, 2008

ngantok.....

ai.. ngantuk nya aku ni.. awal lagi baru pukul 10.40. mgkn sebab terlalu knyg kot, bbq td hehe, sori zamer, azam, lupa nak ajak korang...skang ni tgh dgr lagu faizal tahir, kasih tercipta, best la lagu mamat ni, respect la beb.. xtahu nak bwt aper sbnarnya ni, nak men game, malas, tgk movie, pun malas, nak tido pulak rasa macam rugi je tido awal. xtahu la naper, tp tido la benda plg aku xnak, macam takut tak sempat nak tgk hari esok...

Saturday, November 22, 2008

bosan....

baru jer satu hari cuti, aku dah mula rasa bosan yang amat.. nasib baik ada benda alah ni, (komputer yang ku sayang). kalau tak boleh mati kebosanan aku.. apa aku nak buat dalam cuti ni oo? soklan yang aku sendiri tak tahu jawapannya.. wait n see la kata omputeh, tapi kalau org s'wak kata "nangga rupa la dolok".

byk juga cerita tak best yang aku dengar, n ada yang berkaitan ngn aku, macam2 cerita n aku xtahu saper la yang berhati mulia yang bwt cerita tu, semoga tuhan mengasihani beliau.. bagi aku la, as long as tak kacau hidup aku, aku tak kisah sangat, tapi kadang2 melampau jugak benda tu.. ada orang yang benci aku bila dengar cerita2 camtu, walaupun diorang bukan kawan aku, tapi pelik jugak la rasa bila dibenci tak tentu pasal kan, ada orang yang dulu nya agak ok la jugak, boleh tegur2 kalau jumpa, tp skang ni pandang macam aku ni penjahat no1 kat dunia, pandang george bush pun tak camtu.. nasib dia awek member aku, kalau tak ku sound je.. hihi (macam la berani).

apa2 pun demi kebaikan semua, aku choose utk diam je la, terima jer, maybe that the price to love someone.. biarkan je la diorang nak kata apa, bwt cerita apa, urusan diorang ngn tuhan, kalau ngn aku, selagi xmintak maaf ngn aku, takde aku nak maafkan.. as long as aku tahu sapa aku, benda yang aku bwt tu betul, aku tak kisah, mgkin la, selagi aku dapat sabar, lagipun aku berharap sangat2 aku dapat grad ontime (damm kontrol system), dapat aku tinggal kan unimas ni cepat2.. bukan benci or xsuka, tp, byk benda pahit.. k adios...

sama je....

seorang lelaki cina masuk kedalam sebuah bar dan memesan minuman. steven spielberg yang berada didalam bar tersebut melihat lelaki cina itu, pergi ke arah lelaki cina itu lalu menamparnya dengan sekuat hati. berasa bengang dan marah yang amat, lelaki cina itu bertanya kepada steven spielberg, "apahal ko tiba2 tampar aku". steven speilberg menjawab, "bangsa ko dulu serang pearl habor, datuk aku mati dalam serangan tu". "tapi, yang serang pearl habor, orang jepun, aku cina!" balas lelaki cina itu. "arghhh... tak kira la jepun ke, cina ke. korea ke, semua sama je" balas steven speilberg balik (smbl berasa malu). bengang ngn jawapan tu, lelaki cina tu pun minum byk2, tiba2 lelaki cina itu pergi ke arah steven speilberg lalu menampar beliau dengan sekuat-kuat nya, nasib dia steven speilberg, kalau orang lain dah kompom tercabut kepala. "apahal ko tampar aku balik?'' dengan marah nya steven speilberg bertanya. " ko tahu tak, nenek aku mati ketika titanic karam?" balas lelaki cina itu. " titanic karam disebabkan oleh iceberg, xda kaitan ngn aku" balas steven speilberg. "arghhhhh, iceBERG ke, steven speilBERG ke, semua sama jer".. balas lelaki cina itu dengan senyuman kerana dapat membalas dendam..

Friday, November 21, 2008

kontrol-kontrol

cheatsheet dah penuh, tp baru jer cover 5 chapter.... mana lagi aku nak tulis ni, equation berlambak2, takkan la nak hapal semua.
bengong doh aku nga kontrol ni, doh la banyok, tokde maso pulok tu, kalu la dio bg maso seminggu utk belajar kontrol jah, mesti best. haha.. dr. rubi pun tok buwi tips lasung, yo igt palo otok set2 ni biso blako ko nok igt semo.. huhuhu

Thursday, November 20, 2008

words of songs

if you ever watch black blood brothers, you must like the ending ost of this anime, this is the translation of the song.

The secrets in my dreams tell me
About the sorrows that I’ll come across
I must yearn for mercy
Your pained appearance and my greeting
A gaze that was shut as if tired
I don’t wish for anything more than these
The sickened promise is stinking and hidden; I never knew…

A dream that I can’t recover
My memories grew dim
My pains became dull and my heart cracked
My burnt out soul is simply a cooled mountain of ash
My tears are filled with pain, ha…

So tell me… tell me… the reason why…
How can you do this to me…
You break my heart…
And you make me cry…

In the expressionless, final moonlight
Covered in muddied excuses
The warmth that embraced you
Vanished without a trace; You’ll never know…

Within the endless pain
There’s the belated regret that was left behind
And the flowers of love that disappear meaninglessly…

So tell me… tell me… the reason why…
How can you do this to me…
You break my heart…
And you make me cry…

love quotes

"If You Look In My Eyes You'll See All The Pain I've Been Through But If You Look In My Heart You'll See The One Who Tore It Apart!"

"I tried so hard not to Fall for You but I Fell Hard like a Damn Fool!"

For the world, you just somebody. For somebody, you are the world

When you’re around, I laugh harder. Really, I’m screaming inside.

Sometimes you need to forsake your love for another love, and that is the greatest love

You still enter my dreams sometimes even when I don’t want you there

I gotta walk away,
I gotta end this pain,
I'm gonna make it thru,
I'm gonna get over you!

Once upon a time I was fallen in love but now I’m only fallen apart.....

My every poem has an element called 'dream', may be coz that is the only place we are meant to be together....

Do you see all the pain in her eyes or do you just believe her lies?

Sometimes there just aren’t enough tears to show how much i love you.

You promised me forever, but I guees forever isn't as long as it seems.

Learn to love yourself more then they do
becuase they wont feel the pain when they leave you

You told me you loved me, you said you cared about me, you said you'd never leave me... now here we are 3 months on and you're acting like you never even knew me..."

Thanks to your lies,
Ive been desensitized.

MOVE ON. it's easy to say but hard to do.

Im Getting Over Getting UnderAppreciated.

I'm waiting here for you to realise
No one will love you the way I do,
You say all the words I want to hear
But your actions make me wonder
How many others hear those same words

"Trying to forget someone you love is like trying to remember someone you never met."

"True love never dies as we see in our eyes, only when we let go that we can truly say goodbye."

Real loss only occurs when you lose something that you love more than yourself.

"The bad things in life open your eyes to the good things you weren't paying attention to before."

"Time goes by, life goes on, and all I can think of is why you're gone."

"A break up is like a broken mirror. It is better to leave it broken than hurt yourself trying to fix it."

"Memories are the best souvenirs."

I should have been more careful. I was blinded by your halo, so I never noticed the horns."

If I could have one lifetime wish, one wish that would come true, I'd pray to God with all my heart, for yesterday...and you!"

"The best thing about loving and being hurt is that you get to know what true love really is. For as gold is tested in fire, and so will love be perfected in pain."

"No matter how ugly you think you are, that special someone that loves you believes you are the most beautiful and irresistible thing on earth and nothing can ever change that."

"To love someone is to understand each other, to laugh together, to smile with your heart and to trust one another. One important thing is to let each other go if you can't do this."

When i see you, its the only time i don't fake a smile

Remember who you are , take a picture and post it on your wall
Because when you meet someone and change for them
You'll need that picture to rebuild yourself when that someone leaves you
and you feel like no one.

"I can't escape the thought of you. Even in my dreams you are there. It's not fair how your gone, and how you're moving on so fast, while I am still living in the past."

"I was finally getting over you and actually believing I didn't need you. I was finally accepting you had another man. Then you smiled at me and ruined it all."

"Don't ever give up if you still want to try, don't ever wipe your tears if you still want to cry. Don't ever settle for an answer if you still want to know. Don't ever say you don't love her if you can't let her go."

How can I forget you when your always on my mind? How can I not want you when your all I want inside? How can I let you go when I can't see us apart? How can I not love you when you control my heart?"

"A failing love is like desperately hanging on to something precious; not wanting to give up, but your hands feel the pain. And, when you finally let go, you're free from any pain, but your hands are empty."

"If you have the courage to love, you have the courage to suffer."

Ima go to school like everythings okay
put a smile on my face hold back the tears
&& be the same person I was before you ruined it

"When speaking of lost love, time may heal all wounds, but there will always be scars."

"No matter how much it'll hurt me to see you, my most loved lost one, all that I wish is look into your eyes once again."

"Letting go of someone dear to you is hard, but holding on to someone who doesn't even feel the same is much harder. Giving up doesn't mean you are weak! It only means that you are strong enough to let go!"

"What do you live for when all you were living for is gone?"

"Don't say we're not right for each other, the way I see it, we're not meant for anyone else."

You can keep hurting me, just make sure you don’t leave scars.. Cause scars remind me that the past is real.

Seeing you back then; makes my heart beat fast.
Seeing you now; my heart slowly breaks.

"You hurt me more than I deserve, how can you be so cruel? I love you more than you deserve, why am I such a fool?"

"It's amazing how you make your face just like a wall, how you take your heart and turn it off, how I turn my head and lose it all."

"Every few nights or so you pop into my dreams, I just can't get rid of you like you got rid of me."

"Sometimes we tend to be in despair when the person we love leaves us, but the truth is, it's not our loss, but theirs, for they left the only person who wouldn't give up on them."

"A million words wouldn't bring you back. I know because I've tried. Neither would a million tears. I know because I've cried!"

"There's only one thing I regret doing, loving the girl who didn't love me, and forgetting the one who did."

"It's hard to tell your mind to stop loving someone, when you're heart still does."

"Love is letting go of the one you love, hoping that they will come back to you when they realize what they have lost."

"Should I hate you because you hurt me? Or should I love you because you made me feel special?"

"I will never regret loving you, only believing you loved me too."

Even after all the bullsh*t, the pain, the lies, the tears, I still want you.

"If the truth was told instead of a lie, then the pain would go away sooner and not hurt as much."

"If the truth was told instead of a lie, then the pain would go away sooner and not hurt as much."

"Falling in love is awfully simple, but falling out of love is simply awful."

"The saddest thing in life is loving someone who used to love you."

"Sometimes I wish I had never met you because then I could go to bed at night not knowing there was someone like you out there."

"I wish I was a kid again, because skinned knees are easier to fix then broken hearts."

"I wish you could look at me and see the person you once loved instead of the person you have grown to hate."

Torn between the beauty of my memories and the pain of remembering them

"Now I believe it when people say love is blind... 'cause I must have been blind to love a person like you."

"How can I promise you forever when tomorrow is so far away from me? How can I dry your tears when I have a bleeding heart inside of me? how can I ever forget you when your name is etched so deep within me?"

If i had to choose between loving you and breathing, i would take my last breathe to say i love you.

"Because I never really had you at all, I didn't think it would hurt this much to lose you."

get ready

2nd last day of exam..
exam condition monitoring dalam masa sejam setengah je lagi, tapi ada masa lagi nak tulis blog. hahaha, si Dia dah balik semalam, so bertambah2 la semangat nak belajar ni.. ready???? rasa2 macam dah, tapi macam byak lagi yang tak ingat, last minute study ba.. cepat tepu.. rasa2 macam ok lah, target pass jer pun, asal dapat grad ontime je cukuplah...

Tuesday, June 17, 2008

euro 2008

hai2
euro 2008 dah pun tiba, dah nak habis dah pun group stage. byk bnd2 pelik a.k.a kejutan yang ada kat euro kali ni, bukan AF jer yang ada kjtn, euro pun ada...

ramai orang igt holland susah kali ni, tp diorang dah score 7 gol against both last worl cup finalis concede pun 1 gol jer. crotia mng lwan jerman and dpat top group.... (tak sia2 england tak layak) huhuhuhu. spain cam biasa, hebat dalam group, tp tgu jela quater nt.. badi beb, badi..

tuan2 rumah plak, takde la memalukan walaupun xlepas group stage, diorang score goal, ada point and tak kena belasah, bukan macam tuan rumah piala asia aritu, negara mana la tu, kena belasah macam singa fight ngn ayam... kata harimau malaya la apa la, memalukan jer.

apa2 pun turki, portugal holland is still the best.. tgk je la, salah astu mesti jd champs.. adios..

Wednesday, April 30, 2008

isu babi di selangor

selangor, walaupun ramai peduduk bkn muslim, tetapi still lagi negeri melayu, mempunyai raja melayu dan diperintah oleh orang melayu( pada dasarnya). so, adakah orang2 melayu kat selangor ni sanggup tengok negeri diorang yang tercinta ni, di penuhi babi.... kenapa pemimpin2 melayu di selangor ni, blh tunduk pada permintaan seorang wakil rakyat DAP (wanita pulak tu). kita orang melayu ni, memang dah tahu sangat yang DAP ni nak hapuskan hak2 orang melayu.

lagipun, tempat yang dipilih untuk jadi pusat babi ni memang bertepatan untuk memperkenalkan selangor sebagai negeri babi,, ataupun selangor darul khinzir dalam bahasa arab. SEPANG..... pintu masuk ke malaysia.. bila pelancong2 sampai je kat malaysia.. 1st impression diorang ialah.. "wow, so many pig".. sepang juga temapt tumpuan pelancong bila tibanya F1 malaysia. selain dr panas dan humidity, pelumba2 F1 juga bakal berdepan cabaran baru.. bau babi yang meloyakan... mungkinkah raikonen, hamilton, kubica atau alonso dapat bertahan dengan cabaran yang disediakan oleh kerajaan selangor ini... atau kita dapat menyaksikan mereka tewas di litar favorite mereka?...

lagi satu.. menurut laporan, RM100 juta yang akan digunakan utk project babi ini di sediakan oleh kerajaan negeri selangor... means duit rakyat selangor. apa ke bodoh rakyat melayu selangor bg duit diorang utk bela babi... ke diorang rasa bangga sebab dapat negeri mereka bakal jadi pengeluar babi terbesar.... bila duit rakyat digunakan, ini bermakna setiap rakyat selangor mempunyai share dlm program penternakan babi ni.... mantap lah rakyat selangor..... ok lah last word... maju lah selangor untuk babi... n membangun bersama babi....