ngantok.....

ai.. ngantuk nya aku ni.. awal lagi baru pukul 10.40. mgkn sebab terlalu knyg kot, bbq td hehe, sori zamer, azam, lupa nak ajak korang...skang ni tgh dgr lagu faizal tahir, kasih tercipta, best la lagu mamat ni, respect la beb.. xtahu nak bwt aper sbnarnya ni, nak men game, malas, tgk movie, pun malas, nak tido pulak rasa macam rugi je tido awal. xtahu la naper, tp tido la benda plg aku xnak, macam takut tak sempat nak tgk hari esok...

bosan....

baru jer satu hari cuti, aku dah mula rasa bosan yang amat.. nasib baik ada benda alah ni, (komputer yang ku sayang). kalau tak boleh mati kebosanan aku.. apa aku nak buat dalam cuti ni oo? soklan yang aku sendiri tak tahu jawapannya.. wait n see la kata omputeh, tapi kalau org s'wak kata "nangga rupa la dolok".

byk juga cerita tak best yang aku dengar, n ada yang berkaitan ngn aku, macam2 cerita n aku xtahu saper la yang berhati mulia yang bwt cerita tu, semoga tuhan mengasihani beliau.. bagi aku la, as long as tak kacau hidup aku, aku tak kisah sangat, tapi kadang2 melampau jugak benda tu.. ada orang yang benci aku bila dengar cerita2 camtu, walaupun diorang bukan kawan aku, tapi pelik jugak la rasa bila dibenci tak tentu pasal kan, ada orang yang dulu nya agak ok la jugak, boleh tegur2 kalau jumpa, tp skang ni pandang macam aku ni penjahat no1 kat dunia, pandang george bush pun tak camtu.. nasib dia awek member aku, kalau tak ku sound je.. hihi (macam la berani).

apa2 pun demi kebaikan semua, aku choose utk diam je la, terima jer, maybe that the price to love someone.. biarkan je la diorang nak kata apa, bwt cerita apa, urusan diorang ngn tuhan, kalau ngn aku, selagi xmintak maaf ngn aku, takde aku nak maafkan.. as long as aku tahu sapa aku, benda yang aku bwt tu betul, aku tak kisah, mgkin la, selagi aku dapat sabar, lagipun aku berharap sangat2 aku dapat grad ontime (damm kontrol system), dapat aku tinggal kan unimas ni cepat2.. bukan benci or xsuka, tp, byk benda pahit.. k adios...

sama je....

seorang lelaki cina masuk kedalam sebuah bar dan memesan minuman. steven spielberg yang berada didalam bar tersebut melihat lelaki cina itu, pergi ke arah lelaki cina itu lalu menamparnya dengan sekuat hati. berasa bengang dan marah yang amat, lelaki cina itu bertanya kepada steven spielberg, "apahal ko tiba2 tampar aku". steven speilberg menjawab, "bangsa ko dulu serang pearl habor, datuk aku mati dalam serangan tu". "tapi, yang serang pearl habor, orang jepun, aku cina!" balas lelaki cina itu. "arghhh... tak kira la jepun ke, cina ke. korea ke, semua sama je" balas steven speilberg balik (smbl berasa malu). bengang ngn jawapan tu, lelaki cina tu pun minum byk2, tiba2 lelaki cina itu pergi ke arah steven speilberg lalu menampar beliau dengan sekuat-kuat nya, nasib dia steven speilberg, kalau orang lain dah kompom tercabut kepala. "apahal ko tampar aku balik?'' dengan marah nya steven speilberg bertanya. " ko tahu tak, nenek aku mati ketika titanic karam?" balas lelaki cina itu. " titanic karam disebabkan oleh iceberg, xda kaitan ngn aku" balas steven speilberg. "arghhhhh, iceBERG ke, steven speilBERG ke, semua sama jer".. balas lelaki cina itu dengan senyuman kerana dapat membalas dendam..

kontrol-kontrol

cheatsheet dah penuh, tp baru jer cover 5 chapter.... mana lagi aku nak tulis ni, equation berlambak2, takkan la nak hapal semua.
bengong doh aku nga kontrol ni, doh la banyok, tokde maso pulok tu, kalu la dio bg maso seminggu utk belajar kontrol jah, mesti best. haha.. dr. rubi pun tok buwi tips lasung, yo igt palo otok set2 ni biso blako ko nok igt semo.. huhuhu

words of songs

if you ever watch black blood brothers, you must like the ending ost of this anime, this is the translation of the song.

The secrets in my dreams tell me
About the sorrows that I’ll come across
I must yearn for mercy
Your pained appearance and my greeting
A gaze that was shut as if tired
I don’t wish for anything more than these
The sickened promise is stinking and hidden; I never knew…

A dream that I can’t recover
My memories grew dim
My pains became dull and my heart cracked
My burnt out soul is simply a cooled mountain of ash
My tears are filled with pain, ha…

So tell me… tell me… the reason why…
How can you do this to me…
You break my heart…
And you make me cry…

In the expressionless, final moonlight
Covered in muddied excuses
The warmth that embraced you
Vanished without a trace; You’ll never know…

Within the endless pain
There’s the belated regret that was left behind
And the flowers of love that disappear meaninglessly…

So tell me… tell me… the reason why…
How can you do this to me…
You break my heart…
And you make me cry…

love quotes

"If You Look In My Eyes You'll See All The Pain I've Been Through But If You Look In My Heart You'll See The One Who Tore It Apart!"

"I tried so hard not to Fall for You but I Fell Hard like a Damn Fool!"

For the world, you just somebody. For somebody, you are the world

When you’re around, I laugh harder. Really, I’m screaming inside.

Sometimes you need to forsake your love for another love, and that is the greatest love

You still enter my dreams sometimes even when I don’t want you there

I gotta walk away,
I gotta end this pain,
I'm gonna make it thru,
I'm gonna get over you!

Once upon a time I was fallen in love but now I’m only fallen apart.....

My every poem has an element called 'dream', may be coz that is the only place we are meant to be together....

Do you see all the pain in her eyes or do you just believe her lies?

Sometimes there just aren’t enough tears to show how much i love you.

You promised me forever, but I guees forever isn't as long as it seems.

Learn to love yourself more then they do
becuase they wont feel the pain when they leave you

You told me you loved me, you said you cared about me, you said you'd never leave me... now here we are 3 months on and you're acting like you never even knew me..."

Thanks to your lies,
Ive been desensitized.

MOVE ON. it's easy to say but hard to do.

Im Getting Over Getting UnderAppreciated.

I'm waiting here for you to realise
No one will love you the way I do,
You say all the words I want to hear
But your actions make me wonder
How many others hear those same words

"Trying to forget someone you love is like trying to remember someone you never met."

"True love never dies as we see in our eyes, only when we let go that we can truly say goodbye."

Real loss only occurs when you lose something that you love more than yourself.

"The bad things in life open your eyes to the good things you weren't paying attention to before."

"Time goes by, life goes on, and all I can think of is why you're gone."

"A break up is like a broken mirror. It is better to leave it broken than hurt yourself trying to fix it."

"Memories are the best souvenirs."

I should have been more careful. I was blinded by your halo, so I never noticed the horns."

If I could have one lifetime wish, one wish that would come true, I'd pray to God with all my heart, for yesterday...and you!"

"The best thing about loving and being hurt is that you get to know what true love really is. For as gold is tested in fire, and so will love be perfected in pain."

"No matter how ugly you think you are, that special someone that loves you believes you are the most beautiful and irresistible thing on earth and nothing can ever change that."

"To love someone is to understand each other, to laugh together, to smile with your heart and to trust one another. One important thing is to let each other go if you can't do this."

When i see you, its the only time i don't fake a smile

Remember who you are , take a picture and post it on your wall
Because when you meet someone and change for them
You'll need that picture to rebuild yourself when that someone leaves you
and you feel like no one.

"I can't escape the thought of you. Even in my dreams you are there. It's not fair how your gone, and how you're moving on so fast, while I am still living in the past."

"I was finally getting over you and actually believing I didn't need you. I was finally accepting you had another man. Then you smiled at me and ruined it all."

"Don't ever give up if you still want to try, don't ever wipe your tears if you still want to cry. Don't ever settle for an answer if you still want to know. Don't ever say you don't love her if you can't let her go."

How can I forget you when your always on my mind? How can I not want you when your all I want inside? How can I let you go when I can't see us apart? How can I not love you when you control my heart?"

"A failing love is like desperately hanging on to something precious; not wanting to give up, but your hands feel the pain. And, when you finally let go, you're free from any pain, but your hands are empty."

"If you have the courage to love, you have the courage to suffer."

Ima go to school like everythings okay
put a smile on my face hold back the tears
&& be the same person I was before you ruined it

"When speaking of lost love, time may heal all wounds, but there will always be scars."

"No matter how much it'll hurt me to see you, my most loved lost one, all that I wish is look into your eyes once again."

"Letting go of someone dear to you is hard, but holding on to someone who doesn't even feel the same is much harder. Giving up doesn't mean you are weak! It only means that you are strong enough to let go!"

"What do you live for when all you were living for is gone?"

"Don't say we're not right for each other, the way I see it, we're not meant for anyone else."

You can keep hurting me, just make sure you don’t leave scars.. Cause scars remind me that the past is real.

Seeing you back then; makes my heart beat fast.
Seeing you now; my heart slowly breaks.

"You hurt me more than I deserve, how can you be so cruel? I love you more than you deserve, why am I such a fool?"

"It's amazing how you make your face just like a wall, how you take your heart and turn it off, how I turn my head and lose it all."

"Every few nights or so you pop into my dreams, I just can't get rid of you like you got rid of me."

"Sometimes we tend to be in despair when the person we love leaves us, but the truth is, it's not our loss, but theirs, for they left the only person who wouldn't give up on them."

"A million words wouldn't bring you back. I know because I've tried. Neither would a million tears. I know because I've cried!"

"There's only one thing I regret doing, loving the girl who didn't love me, and forgetting the one who did."

"It's hard to tell your mind to stop loving someone, when you're heart still does."

"Love is letting go of the one you love, hoping that they will come back to you when they realize what they have lost."

"Should I hate you because you hurt me? Or should I love you because you made me feel special?"

"I will never regret loving you, only believing you loved me too."

Even after all the bullsh*t, the pain, the lies, the tears, I still want you.

"If the truth was told instead of a lie, then the pain would go away sooner and not hurt as much."

"If the truth was told instead of a lie, then the pain would go away sooner and not hurt as much."

"Falling in love is awfully simple, but falling out of love is simply awful."

"The saddest thing in life is loving someone who used to love you."

"Sometimes I wish I had never met you because then I could go to bed at night not knowing there was someone like you out there."

"I wish I was a kid again, because skinned knees are easier to fix then broken hearts."

"I wish you could look at me and see the person you once loved instead of the person you have grown to hate."

Torn between the beauty of my memories and the pain of remembering them

"Now I believe it when people say love is blind... 'cause I must have been blind to love a person like you."

"How can I promise you forever when tomorrow is so far away from me? How can I dry your tears when I have a bleeding heart inside of me? how can I ever forget you when your name is etched so deep within me?"

If i had to choose between loving you and breathing, i would take my last breathe to say i love you.

"Because I never really had you at all, I didn't think it would hurt this much to lose you."

get ready

2nd last day of exam..
exam condition monitoring dalam masa sejam setengah je lagi, tapi ada masa lagi nak tulis blog. hahaha, si Dia dah balik semalam, so bertambah2 la semangat nak belajar ni.. ready???? rasa2 macam dah, tapi macam byak lagi yang tak ingat, last minute study ba.. cepat tepu.. rasa2 macam ok lah, target pass jer pun, asal dapat grad ontime je cukuplah...